Inspired by this song:
I heard this song a week or two ago and somehow fell in love with it because it made me realise what other people had tried to show to me but had failed in convincing. And that was not giving up for something you want, not losing hope when you have been unable to achieve something, staying strong when you have lost your prized possession.
Listening to all this may seem difficult and some people won't even try before giving up altogether. That's what i did. I went and tried to hide myself in the darkest and lonliest corners/places that i could find. It started from breaking all connections with the outer world to staying for hours and hours in my room, covering my face with the pillow and snuggling/hiding deep inside the blanket just so that i felt as if i was hidden from the cruel world, from the disappointments i had to face, for the disappointment i was becoming for everyone (that is what i thought). This made me feel like harry potter who had no option than to stay inside the cupboard under the stairs and later on in Dudleys' old room. At that time, i wanted to stay in that cupboard too (not with harry though =P) so that the creepy crawlies would be my only company and my true friends.
The thing that i didn't realise then was that this isn't the life i want to live or want it to become, no this can never be because it was a life that the foolish ones' lived because they did not understand what they were losing.
(I don't know why i'm writing all this and there is nothing like a destination point right now in my head. It's just that i have this feeling of saying it all out no matter what the consequences be so that it would somehow make me feel better and lighter about the on going situations.)
When i was in grade four, i used to go to Quran academy in the next lane with my younger brother. There i met a girl a year or two younger than me. I never shared this story with anyone in my life, but she had inspired me very much at that age. She lived in the market a few steps away from our colony where her father was a low level average earner who sold groceries on his donkey cart. They didn't have any of the stuff that we had at our home, but she told me not once did they complain about it instead thanked Allah for what he blessed them with because there are many other people in this world who don't even have anything which they can call their own.
She used to play with me alot at my home and i enjoyed her company, she even corrected my namaz one i once prayed in the wrong way for which i owe her.
One day she was very much worried and came late to the academy. I asked her the reason behind it but she just shrugged it off. But me being who i am, i asked her again because i couldn't see her worry. This time though, she told me that she ate a chocolate bar from the money she had even though her parents had given her to spend it. But she had wanted to save them inorder to buy a gift for her parents. Now she was feeling bad about eating it. At that moment i understood what she was feeling and comforted her, i even asked her if i could pay but she refused and that made her respect soar in my eyes. Though all this taught me a lesson, as on the same day, i had been throwing a tantrum for a something which i don't remember now (usually i don't throw a tantrum) but mom was saying that she will get it for me on the weekend but i was repetitively asking for it to be bought on the same day and not on the weekend.
When i saw my friend getting worried about buying a chocolate bar instead of saving money for her parents, i instantly felt very bad. After returning home, i hugged my mother and apologised to her but she was confused on the sudden change in behaviour. I didn't tell her though.
Looking back at that, i see that you can't get everything you want in your life but that doesn't mean that you should stop completely. Faith is the only thing that we should have in ourselves and that is what this incident tells me and so does this song.
As Alanis Morissette said in the song mentioned above:
"What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five"
You know, every one has a heart of gold. You just need to lift of the veil on it to let it really shine and stop the darkness from creeping over it and completely covering it. Because if it succeeds in engulfing you then you will fall down into the hold of darkness where you need to find the true light to your path back to safety, to home, to the place where you belong. And what i know now is that light lies inside you, you just need the power to grab it out and bring it out to guide you and always be with you.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQ8D5Ihe4hg
I heard this song a week or two ago and somehow fell in love with it because it made me realise what other people had tried to show to me but had failed in convincing. And that was not giving up for something you want, not losing hope when you have been unable to achieve something, staying strong when you have lost your prized possession.
Listening to all this may seem difficult and some people won't even try before giving up altogether. That's what i did. I went and tried to hide myself in the darkest and lonliest corners/places that i could find. It started from breaking all connections with the outer world to staying for hours and hours in my room, covering my face with the pillow and snuggling/hiding deep inside the blanket just so that i felt as if i was hidden from the cruel world, from the disappointments i had to face, for the disappointment i was becoming for everyone (that is what i thought). This made me feel like harry potter who had no option than to stay inside the cupboard under the stairs and later on in Dudleys' old room. At that time, i wanted to stay in that cupboard too (not with harry though =P) so that the creepy crawlies would be my only company and my true friends.
The thing that i didn't realise then was that this isn't the life i want to live or want it to become, no this can never be because it was a life that the foolish ones' lived because they did not understand what they were losing.
(I don't know why i'm writing all this and there is nothing like a destination point right now in my head. It's just that i have this feeling of saying it all out no matter what the consequences be so that it would somehow make me feel better and lighter about the on going situations.)
When i was in grade four, i used to go to Quran academy in the next lane with my younger brother. There i met a girl a year or two younger than me. I never shared this story with anyone in my life, but she had inspired me very much at that age. She lived in the market a few steps away from our colony where her father was a low level average earner who sold groceries on his donkey cart. They didn't have any of the stuff that we had at our home, but she told me not once did they complain about it instead thanked Allah for what he blessed them with because there are many other people in this world who don't even have anything which they can call their own.
She used to play with me alot at my home and i enjoyed her company, she even corrected my namaz one i once prayed in the wrong way for which i owe her.
One day she was very much worried and came late to the academy. I asked her the reason behind it but she just shrugged it off. But me being who i am, i asked her again because i couldn't see her worry. This time though, she told me that she ate a chocolate bar from the money she had even though her parents had given her to spend it. But she had wanted to save them inorder to buy a gift for her parents. Now she was feeling bad about eating it. At that moment i understood what she was feeling and comforted her, i even asked her if i could pay but she refused and that made her respect soar in my eyes. Though all this taught me a lesson, as on the same day, i had been throwing a tantrum for a something which i don't remember now (usually i don't throw a tantrum) but mom was saying that she will get it for me on the weekend but i was repetitively asking for it to be bought on the same day and not on the weekend.
When i saw my friend getting worried about buying a chocolate bar instead of saving money for her parents, i instantly felt very bad. After returning home, i hugged my mother and apologised to her but she was confused on the sudden change in behaviour. I didn't tell her though.
Looking back at that, i see that you can't get everything you want in your life but that doesn't mean that you should stop completely. Faith is the only thing that we should have in ourselves and that is what this incident tells me and so does this song.
As Alanis Morissette said in the song mentioned above:
"What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five"
You know, every one has a heart of gold. You just need to lift of the veil on it to let it really shine and stop the darkness from creeping over it and completely covering it. Because if it succeeds in engulfing you then you will fall down into the hold of darkness where you need to find the true light to your path back to safety, to home, to the place where you belong. And what i know now is that light lies inside you, you just need the power to grab it out and bring it out to guide you and always be with you.
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ReplyDeleteI used google translate =P Thankyou :)
Delete@obar kuat: Sorry I don't understand your language! =)
ReplyDelete@Syed Zeeshan Ali: Thankyou for praising! =) And same to you